oy. i am grateful for:
1) a warm place to live, eat, and sleep
2) not having to commute
3) friends, a phone call away
4) wool long underwear
5) “the happiness project” by gretchen rubin. really digging it. her blog is good too.
6) talking to someone today who also hates the snow, which makes me feel less like i hate puppies or popcorn or jesus or daisies. which i don’t. it’s gorgeous, i get it. the trees look all delicately white and there’s a poetic romance to the flakes drifting slowly from the sky. freaking lovely. it’s just that it’s also, white. cold. then slushy and icy and hard to walk in. and cold. and gray. and yellow. and: i like color! i love all the shades of green more than, i confess/rant, all the shades of gray that winter comes in. i miss kelly and forest and apple and grass greens. i miss red flowers and purple flowers or even maple-colored leaves and brown exposed dirt. i am not a fan of the neutral palette. and i realize this is now a fantastic opportunity to look at desire and aversion. my mind coils up like a struck snake at this weather: the very sneering face of: “new reality, please.” and yet, how do i lean into this? the grays, the chills, what i see as a supreme lack? equanimity, i suppose, yes? a balanced and centered mind. in which this stuff doesn’t drag me down. alas. a neutral mind feels as out of reach as non-aversion to a neutral palette. anyhoo. tomorrow is another day. one in which i might develop a fondness for gray.
7) sauteéd zuchinni
8) this delightful post quoting cesar milan on his parenting views. ok, the post itself is not delightful, but cesar is. trés.
9) that procrastinating excruciatingly is getting me better read
10) wool socks
