yeah susan miller, you called it. this is one weird-ass month. right? for so many reasons.
i, though, am grateful for:
1) the yoga teacher who actually introduced himself and asked about any injuries this morning. granted, s. and i were the youngest ones in the class by a good 30 years, but still, it was nice.
2) my continued obsession with frozen banana, unsweetened dagoba cocoa powder, a date, oat milk, and ice, blended.
3) that my proposal bebe has taken her first steps out in the world.
4) sarah maclachlan on the emmys. it must be nice to be a producer who can be like, “hey, yeah, for the memorial, let’s play that song, you know, the one by that chick that was played over and over around 9/11?” “oh, right, we should play that.” “or we can just ask her to sing it for us.” “yeah.” i still love that damn song.
5) the universe continuing to speak to me about certain things. i went to taylor mali’s book launch event thing at the bowery poetry club on 9/9/09 and he and his wife read this neruda poem to each other on stage: “I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, /or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off. /I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, /in secret, between the shadow and the soul. /I love you as the plant that never blooms /but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; /thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,/ risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body./ I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where./ I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;/ so I love you because I know no other way/ than this: where I does not exist, nor you,/ so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,/ so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.”
6) my haircut from melissa soon, who rocks. it’s very odd how need-meeting it is to finally feel like someone understands what you want from your hair and have wanted for a very long time.
7) the waterbugs seeming to have gone elsewhere for the fall
8) j.’s students’ amazing peace rocks
9) finishing a 40-day practice
10) that even though i feel like making a bitch-list, a moan, whine, kvetch list, i am making this list instead. tho i will probably make the other, on paper, for me to find some day and be like, “damn i am always so negative in my journals.”
12) deep exfoliation
13) that my big white pillows on my floor around my bed remind me of hounds made of marshmallows, like i am surrounded by big white friendly dogs every morning
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you are awesome! thanks for being grateful for my students’ project! and YUM – that chocolate powder, banana thing sounds killer! have to go get the ingredients tomorrow! oh – and i haven’t eaten meat since omega – what’s up with that? xoj
13 = exquisite.