crispy-fried gratitude

i’m the kind of tired that should only come from having three kids under the age of five. it all feels so not-soft, so spiky and with no soft place to land. that whined, i am grateful for:

1) meeting a. today. so cool to see people charged up by helping other people.

2) seeing a friend on sunday for the first time since 6th grade. go facebook.

3) the “true mirror” at the figment festival on governor’s island. the guy at the booth said we can’t connect with our true light selves in a regular mirror because we’re seeing ourselves backward. we can very easily slip into a “negative feedback loop” with the steely mirror gaze most of us give ourselves. so when we look in a true mirror, a rigged little set-up that allows you to see yourself reverse-mirror image like other people see you–we can get our essence better. we can connect with ourselves through our eyes without obsessing about our hair or whatever because we see how we’re really feeling. it made me smile at myself. i started to see it and the positive feedback loop that created.  he said we can all do this for each other. and it’s truly amazing because two days before i was telling j. i felt like i was looking into all these mirrors metaphorically that were so much kinder than how i see myself. other people being so much kinder and warmer and more forgiving. and it makes me wonder if i have any idea who i really am, if any of us do. and can we blame it all on shiny glass?

4) governor’s island. being so close to the river. so calming.

5) chocolate-covered almonds

6) that i’m getting a change of venue

7) wood. it’s kind of a miracle, wood. another point for the trees.

8) a clean home

9) fuchsia peonies

10) post-its

11) the amazing butterfly-filled strength-symbol amazingness from j. omigod. so beautiful. so love.