caffeinated at midnight gratitude

i am grateful for….

1) possible gigantic snowstorms

2) hearts everywhere

3) the amazing pool at gurney’s inn

4) winter ocean

5) this, which just came in breszny’s newsletter: “Your body needs to be held and to hold, to be touched and to touch. None of these needs is to be despised, denied, or repressed. But you have to keep searching for your body’s deeper need, the need for genuine love. Every time you are able to go beyond the body’s superficial desires for love, you are bringing your body home and moving toward integration and unity.” – Henri Nouwen

6) the prospect of trying out my new mini slow-cooker

7) getting back on the trampoline

8) being heard and liked (i think) despite the neurotic, circle-talking, pre-ambling, pre-rambling weirdness i trip into sometimes

9) liz lemon

10) glorious cheerleaders

11) large men in tight gold pants, or as e. said, “i like gold butts, i cannot lie.”

12) chili

13) my first taste of bouillabaisse

14) keeping the balls all in the air and they are many and plenty and good

15) for my brave chicas who are keeping on keeping on despite the large piles of crap in the road. who may even learn to make fuel from it or just whiz past it to a sunnier part of the world. i am humbled by your persevering and dedication to growing, to coming out better somehow from the seeming badness. you help me in the process, and so many others, you have no idea.

16) feeling like a flower right now