om namah sunshine-ah gratitude

i am grateful for:

1) wah! playing last night at the 700 Voices festival and saying that often every song ends up turning into “hare krishna.” and how that could be true with everything. she said she wished it could be her only response: “what time is it?” “hare krishna.” “do you want to go to the party?” “hare krishna.” because we don’t know, really, any complete answers to anything–like until yesterday she had no idea there was a garbage dump the size of texas in the ocean and now everything has changed. but “hare krishna” seems to cover it all–just chanting god’s name.

2) john de kadt showing up today at the fest and his kick-ass drumming getting my groove on for the first time in many months.

3) the notion that chanting cleans the heart and the image i got of windshield wipers cutting through my mud, leaving a clear arc of glass that it can see through. what if we all had prajna through our hearts, even if it was just through a small clearing in the schmutz that would be enough to change everything? hare krishna.

4) j., for hanging and dancing and getting me chanting this weekend

5) the lovely kent falls inn and the dozens of fireflies doing their thing against the dark trees

6) that i had another coincidence relating to this thing i keep having coincidences about. [cryptic-and-vague alert.] i mean i hate being reminded, and i feel like enough, enough, enough, already. but i’m pretty sure it means some sort of universal beloved is whispering in my ear and i don’t know what she’s saying exactly, but it makes me want to try and listen. it makes me want to pay attention and see how i can transform my suffering–and oy, i am still suffering–into something brokenly beautiful that might help other people with their broken hearts that they also keep willing whole.

7) cold, dark swimming pools with dark bottoms

8) seeing a cute, chubby groundhog today. s/he doesn’t worry about her weight, i can tell you that. (god, i hope–please say there’s no groundmopolitan magazine with tips on “eating grass for a leaner you” articles.)

9) stars

10) my new saying after chanting today and walking into the finally brilliant sunshine: om namah sunshine-ah!

11) j. and d., who made us a lovely csa-fueled lunch in the back of their sweet little kent shop today

12) the lingering amma-ness

13) this sentence, that i found by following this facebook game/instruction: “pick up the nearest book. not the coolest or smartest, but nearest. turn to page 56, find the 5th sentence and make it your status update.” i haven’t done the last part yet, but here it is: “The yogi’s mind thus meditating, becomes unobstructed from the atomic to the infinite.” — the yoga sutras of patanjali. and i swear that was really closest, but only because of a creative freak-out that made me start researching instead of digging within for answers. but hey, meditation. i heard that’s some dope shit. maybe i should try it. god. i can’t recall the last time i sat. that is sad. want to meditate with me?

14) creative hope

15) getting an incredible thai massage outdoors from a lovely sweet man named kit (sp?) who lives in monterey, mass. if you get a chance, get under his fingers.

16) that in three separate instances in the last 48 hours i have heard the phrase “may the force be with you.”

may the force be with you. hare krishna.