patiently impatient gratitude

i mean, can’t i just be cooked already? fully sane, fully compassionate, fully awake, aware, and alive? and in a great, conscious relationship with a beautiful, alive, smart, open, tender, funny, real mate? and fully career actualized? and contributing to the world? and loaded with cash? and living in a beautiful, comfy, eco, happy home? and ensconced in nature? and completely ease-ful and healthy and balanced in body and mind? can i, can i? now? are we there yet? are we there?

k. yeah. thought so.

i am grateful for….
1) red baraat festival, the indian wedding marching band at barbes. and j for getting me there.
2) closet-purging
3) jj and kk and little a and the amazing homemade goat-cheese pizza heaven
4) haagen dazs five
5) krishna das and the way the music just soothes me right back inside
6) the botanical gardens
7) water
8) being loved too, however distantly and oddly
9) hafiz
10) new shoes
11) not taking in the news media for the moment. sorry. i know. i just can’t right now. soon.