i am grateful for:
1) seeing anne lamott last night at symphony space with a. she’s funny and smart and inspiring and i want to be as disciplined and expressed as her.
2) friday. has this week not been 10 weeks long?
3) staying semi-detached as the drama whirs past me.
4) beginning to learn EFT. it might be the thing–the thing that helps me clear out this emotional emotional system of mine. i’ve always had more than my share of da feelings and they get so activated and i get cloudy and not so functional, so if there’s a way to ring the sponge, that might also get rid of my migraines, i am so game.
5) nightmares last night of dara. of holding and then losing her baby. in real life, she didn’t get to have a baby, and in the dream i lost hers. it vanished from my arms and therefore i felt responsible. it was snowing out. it was awful, awful for so many reasons, but i feel like my psyche is clearing out some old stuff. processing the layers of death from earlier this year. last night anne lamott said when she meets god some day she’s going to be like, “OK, dude, what was THAT?” about her best friend dying they were both 37. i feel like that. OK, what was THAT? why can’t i go get pie with my friend? why?
6) the store meadow in the west village. they have: flowers, salts (like 100 kinds of finishing salts), chocolate (like 100 kinds of artisinal amazingness), and bitters (i’m excited to try chocolate bitters in a cocktail). i heart this store.
7) the show “once upon a time.” addicted. and just realized this morning that curses break, things begin to heal, when you have a witness. and emma is a witness. wow. really, just, check it out.
8) help, thanks, wow. the name of anne lamott’s new book, but also, as she says, the three ways to pray. indeed.
9) did i mention friday? and grass-fed burgers planned with my honey? and house-made ginger soda? (maybe with a little something stronger? mmm)
10) dark red toenail polish.
