i feel like roadrunner’s legs when he’s motoring across the desert. swooooosh. work, sleep, yoga, work, book, sleep, work, friends, sleep, work, book, etc. it’s good though. it keeps my brain from turning into too many unlit labyrinths. i am grateful for:
1) a. for putting my how to prepare for scary medical tests article on huffington post today.
2) signing up for omega’s ecstatic chant weekend for labor day. wheeee! hare krishna!
3) that i’ve gotten to spend a lovely, not-too-lonely friday evening listening to a chant 101 mix i’m making, drinking mint iced tea, eating a lil ricotta pizza from amorina, and painting the rest of my sri yantra.
4) summer adventures
5) that i found a bunch of journals last night and discovered i took better notes than i thought
6) feeling kinda inspired
7) noticing how when i’m on my own i become more myself. or more of something that is not someone else, so i’m assuming that’s me. i mean i never thought i’d let myself get so immersed in chanting and yoga and and yantra and mantra and unafraid to wear a paisley indian dress with malas and lotus earrings all at once, like i did today. i think i’ve always been so oddly committed to not fully committing to what deeply draws me, out of some desire for “balance”–like i can’t be too much of one thing; a little bit country a little bit hip-hop. but instead of being a mix of interests i was just kind of stuck. i don’t know where i got this thing that says you shouldn’t dive too deep into one interest area–was it the well-rounded-for-college myth they were selling in the 80’s and early 90’s? anyway, this is to say i’m living the digging deep phenom. it is leading me into new territory, where the non-skimmers live, which is scary and wonderful. when i was 22 a psychic in maui said to me, “it is like you are driving with the brakes on.” maybe my red tail lights are finally going off. wheee!
8) homemade mint iced tea
9) that i’ve had a couple of moments this week of catching people’s eyes and seeing a sentient, aware, awake-ish being there. it’s surprisingly rare and beautiful and hope-renewing.
10) my friends saying nice things about my writing. it reminds me that i don’t suck, or at least they don’t think so, which is nice.
11) getting interviewed for tv again. on 9/11. i like this stuff. still have to watch my “ums” tho…
12) puppies
13) weleda’s birch scrub
14) writing stuff recently that i like-ish:
awakening 9/11 anniversary fatigue
2 Comments
7 = lovely.
thank you, b.