mid-sick gratitude

hi. still sick. some signs of wellness tho. i’m grateful for that and…

1) that having singing bowls played on my chest on belly was, while being really annoying, actually apparently healing
2) going to a new, cool aries acupuncturist today who has furthered my healing, i think. my lungs feel calmer than they have in weeks. i know i need to be careful not to push it, tho. this reprieve for the last couple of hours is making me feel guilty for not working. but i kinda know if i were to do anything more than light blogging and occassional facebooking and sleeping and reading, i’d feel shitastic in about two minutes. a hard lesson i’ve learned. but good to remember. especially when i am absolutely so bummed that i can’t go to basement bhangra tonight. i neeeeeeeeed to dance.
3) friends and neighbors checking in on me
4) emailing with a.
5) that, while messy and dish-piled, my home is warm and cozy
6) the amazing cab driver i had last night who continued talking to/at me for 15 minutes in front of my house yesterday, lecturing on the finer details of using a non-stick grill pan. and how i MUST get one. all-clad, cuisinart, or calphalon, on sale at macy’s. he also told me i need to get an eres swimsuit (he is obsessed with the city’s beaches, not least because of all the “hot women” on them and seems to know an almost eerie amount about $500 women’s swimsuits). and i now know how to grill anything. and that brooklyn is on long island. and that we have some of the cleanest beaches in the world. and that he wears a speedo because they are “aqua dynamic” and it bugs him when he takes friends to the beach and they wear shabby cut-offs because it makes him and his son look bad. so now i totally have to buy a grill pan. and then a 12″ sautee pan and a 6″ sautee pan after that. because tho he likes my “excuses” about not really cooking and having a tiny kitchen, he’s not buying them. he also said i was a “very engaging young woman,” and it strikes me that all it really takes to be engaging is listening sometimes. and with my chest all coughy i have to talk less and listen more which is a really good thing. except the extra words have to come out somewhere and apparently right now that is here. so, thanks, if you managed to get through all of that!
7) almond butter and honey and banana on health bread
8) krishna das
9) feeling like i have a life
10) feeling like i like my life
11) feeling like even if i changed the circumstances of my life i would still like my life