11:29 on a friday night after my best friend’s pre-wedding cocktail party, in nose-tip chilly Brooklyn.
I am tired and grateful for:
1) mercury-in-retrograde, everything’s-not-working workplace camaraderie
2) how happy last night’s banquet and awards made my dad
3) that i finally got back online at home–surprisingly, cablevision has really stellar customer service. who knew?
4) the sound of the clock in the kitchen
5) the hopefulness of a wedding
6) toes
7) thursday night’s sweaty, fantastically playful, hard sonic yoga class.
8) learning patience even tho it is so contrary to my aries nature–with computers, people, trains, myself
9) the guy at aveda with the tiny mohawk who did my makeup tonight. he kept suggesting that maybe the party i was going to would have naked people. random.
10) this: the other night my shrink said it was really important to keep my heart open. i asked why. this seemed to stop him. and he said (as all stallers do), “that’s a really good question.” after a moment, one of the reasons he gave: “so you can keep your heart open to the vibration of the universe.” which, if you are not an eye-roller, which you may have gathered that i am essentially not, is an incredibly good, gorgeous reason. basically, so you can stay open to divine love. to god. to the pulse of who you really are, who we all are. which resonates so much more deeply than something like, “so we don’t get bitter.” we keep our hearts open so that we may receive blessings and grace of the juiciest and most sublime, divinely real kind. yeah. that is a reason to fight for. to love for.
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10. it’s kind of like birdwatching, if you think about it: stand quietly in the dooryard, open to everything, and you just know that, if you’re patient, you will see or hear or sense a little miracle.
i love that, b. the idea of a receptive stillness. and oh yeah, patience. 🙂 patience. thanks.