post-(mostly)-flu gratitude

a gray fall day in the bk. i’m grateful….

1) that i’m feeling human again
2) that i managed to take care of myself while i was sick. with soup and green juice and wellness formula
3) writing
4) fall
5) neruda’s poetry, which actually hurts sometimes. i’m reading this at a wedding soon and it slays me. especially because i wonder–can that be true? how often can people mean things like “Thanks to your love, a certain solid fragrance,/risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.”? i just keep hearing about divorces lately and they’re like deaths. the us dies. and two people emerge. which maybe isn’t bad–are we meant to be one bubble anyway? or a forever bubble? or at least a full-time bubble? my late maui acupuncturist agatha nagy used to tell me a lot, “relationship is the art of coming together and pulling apart, and coming together and pulling apart.” which is a pretty beautiful way to look at it. how do we stay supple in that–stay ourselves, stay present, stay open, stay loving?
6) sleep
7) npr podcasts
8) the savage love podcast
9) this hilarious, offensive sarah silverman video
10) jon and steven