i am grateful for…
1) this d.h. lawrence quote (found in vivian gornick’s “the situation & the story”): “man is only free when he is doing what his deepest self likes, and knowing what the deepest self likes, ah!, that takes some diving.”
2) “god is too big for just one religion” – michael franti
3) the continuing coincidences with a guru and a boy. i don’t understand, i really don’t. but i surrender it as a sweet reminder that i am not alone, and do not have all the information. and those are both a good thing.
4) samba dance class with samba new york. fun! even tho i really have a hard time coordinating my brain and my feet.
5) the movie “american teen.” so good. can you imagine if we all had video evidence of the meanest things people did to us, the worst things our parents said? i’m sure there are downsides, but so much of my own suffering is born of not trusting my own experience and waiting to be validated. not quite getting maybe that it doesn’t matter what “true” is or whether i should or shouldn’t have been affected by something. just that there are some scars from the past and they hurt and that’s ok and that’s real but it doesn’t have to rule me now. and no need to wait for anything. sorry. i digress. a lot. but “american teen” rocks. for hannah alone.
6) muji
7) that i had some zen moments of cleaning last night. being mindful while scrubbing.
8) the “on the media” piece from thursday with my friend eric about the media trying to whip up panic–and there not actually being much panic at all. i love you, brooke gladstone.
9) i am not grateful for: this acute sense of longing and the way it makes me want to jump away from my skin. (sorry, i know, not in the spirit of this list but i couldn’t find a part to be grateful for to reframe/covertly tell. so there it is.)
10) van leeuwen organic ice cream from a truck in soho. omyeffinggod, baby. mint choco chip heaven.
