i am grateful for:
1) extended warmth.
2) that k. is ok. “it’s gettin’ real in the life parking lot.” i mean, life suddenly seems to have gotten so much more precious. a result of being the age that i am, but it feels like suddenly there are so many more potential and actual catastrophes. it was a luxury having my cancer be an anomaly in my life. now it feels like just another card in a very mixed hand. that said, i am deeply grateful for smart western medicine, for crises averted, for blessings in the shadows.
3) my kindle. i feel so naughty about it. like, sorry, heavy paper things that are hard to juggle on the subway with coffee, i love you dearly, but this light, one-handed device that holds all the books on my shelves, it’s good.
4) pouring half a latte in a glass with ice and adding agave.
5) being able to help out with friends in need.
6) walking in the park yesterday and seeing: the little girl scratching the soft ear of the big dog; jamaican men playing cricket badly but with enthusiasm; an abandoned teddy bear tucked into a bench so as to be found by its owner; trees, starting to turn, ever so few, orange.
7) keeping nice walking pace with my honey. i feel like walking together should be a required activity for every relationship. it harmonizes on the most basic physical level; it’s a metaphor for traveling through the world together, seeing things, talking, not talking; it’s a way of being close while giving space and air. i likey.
8) reading “a new earth.” i blew it off the first time, but i am digging me some eckhart right now: “Yielding means inner acceptance of what is. You are open to life. Resistance is an inner contraction, a hardening of the ego. You are closed. Whatever action you take in a state of inner resistance (which we could also call negativity) will create more outer resistance, and the universe will not be on your side; life will not be helpful. If the shutters are closed, the sunlight cannot come in. When you yield internally, when you surrender, a new dimension of consciousness opens up. If action is possible or necessary, your action will be in alignment with the whole and supported by creative intelligence, the unconditioned consciousness, which in a state of inner openness you become one with. Circumstances and people then become helpful, cooperative. Coincidences happen. If no action is possible, you rest in the peace and inner stillness that come with surrender. You rest in God.”
9) “yogactivists” visiting occupy wall street today.
10) fresh-baked granola, by me.
