i am grateful for:
1) strawberries
2) this new notion i’m chewing on. sometimes to let go you actually have to process the person/experience/idea through your psychic system. you have to emotionally digest it in an almost physical way. you taste the bitter or the sweet on your tongue and when you can bear it, you swallow and your body takes what it needs (because it’s not hemming and hawing like your mind, it just knows) and then eventually… flushhhhh. i like it. will let you know how it works out.
3) feeling oddly solid and more present even though i am screechingly depleted
4) that i’m probably being filmed for tv again tomorrow
5) susan miller
6) not watching tv anymore
7) feeling real
8) change afoot
9) the state of colorado, city of boulder, for giving me something to look forward to
10) feeling like maybe how water does as it turns to ice or vapor to water. transitiony on an atomic level. there are so many more possibilities than we allow for, i’m pretty sure.
