flu-itude

i am still flu-y and achey and tired. but today i am grateful for:

1) running water
2) chickens
3) a. and p. for giving me their csa veggies (and to j. for taking some of them off my hands)
4) potatoes
5) my dear dear friends
6) the revelation that i need to tend more to the things i care deeply about to root my emotional life in something other than people. i mean in addition to people. is it the book? teaching? managing? dunno. but it feels urgent that i get on it whatever it is.
7) that don draper is finally getting his karmic comeuppance.
8) the people i work with who all worked their asses off for me in my absence on my work this week.
9) trying to actually receive that support deeply instead of rejecting it out of guilt and self-loathing.
10) that i hopefully got my flu out of the way early this year.

ps: i’m looking for a mattress topper for my full-size bed. they’re all so pricey that i want to make sure i get the right kind–i’m looking for soft, non-vanishing support that you can really feel, preferably organic. not foam. probably wool. the kind that holds warmly, richly, deeply and would kiss you if it could but instead just cradles you to sleep at night in its lush embrace. anyone have something they love to recommend? other than Johnny Depp as Edward Featherhands. which might be hard to find.

thanks.